I did some more shopping for small whatnots and stocking stuffers. To be very honest walking around TARGET and WALMART was sure depressing. I just did not enjoy looking around. I usually do not get too bummed but this season of meriment has not been so good for me.
I keep telling myself to sorta snap out of it but it is proving to be more of a challenge. I think the whole baby thing with my ex and my kids just seemingly being so thrilled and so happy has just not been so easy for me. At times it is all I can think about in the back of my head. One GOOD thing is my son has elected to travel to PA with me and not stay at his dad's for Thanksgiving like his sisters are doing. So I will have one of my kids with me--that has added a spark.

Yes shopping has been really hard. I guess everything looks the same and is the same. I will have two weeks off from the stores.....hopefully by then I will get re-energized. Everything seems overpriced and well just boring.....I usually find much clever items and I am sure striking out this year.

I ate out on Saturday with my girlfriend and boy that was fun. A neat little tea shop filled with Christmas everything and candle lights in the windows. I could tell by how much I talked I needed to get out. We had such fun. I even had desert...a small pc. of pumpkin roll....boy was that fantastic!
So I had a nice treat going out to eat.

With the girls gone I kept the heat low or off.....and hung some laundry out on the line. I managed to also get some sleep and rest that I sorely miss during the week. Since I shopped close to home I did not use too much gas. I also grocery shopped close to home. I did not buy alot figuring I want to wait till my son comes home Monday evening to see what he wants as far as food goes. I did make a meatloaf tody to use on Monday night. So dinner is made for Monday. I just have to make mashed potatoes.

My mother keeps asking me if I bought any new clothes for me....sadly I keep putting it off. I just can not be buying stuff for me at this time of year it seems. She just does not get it. It is hard to explain to others about being frugal and being Ok with it. I think it angers my mom to see me have to switch my lifestyle now that I am divorced. Oh well I just can't make people see my point of view at times, and that is OK.
Not much I can do to change their minds.

Back to work on Monday....I am off Thursday thru Sunday. We will put our tree up on Saturday . Hopefully I will get more into the spirit. I am thankful for everything I have. I truly am. I am so glad to have a working car--two in fact, a house, a job, warmth when I want it.....a pretty nice new tv, health...great kids and good good friends and family----you name it. I just wish life would not hurt so much or cause such private pain at times. I am thankful. I really am.